Welcoming Words

Hey guys. SpaceGuru5 here, bringing you my official blog. Est. 31 Aug 2012.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Important Update

(Note: This post contains some language specific to Roman Catholicism, so if reading religious stuff makes you uncomfortable, you don't have to subject yourself to it.)

I spent the whole afternoon yesterday at a retreat my youth group attended. It was my second time going to this retreat. Both times were powerful experiences, but for different reasons.

About a year ago, I was stressed out about my academic performance. I was seriously worried that I was going to fail my college classes and, in turn, fail my parents. Thus, when I went to the retreat in 2015, I felt a powerful reassurance that things would be okay, and that the Lord will always be with me.

Ever since then, I've undergone quite a number of things, mostly concerning Darth's mother's stance on my YouTube channel. It was all an emotional firestorm, and I was caught up in it with DFG Hulk. I was sucked into a vortex of depression and anxiety that I figured I'd never escape. On top of this, Darth's mother continued to seemingly pester DFG Hulk on his channel, making both of us feel agitated and wrathful.

Then, yesterday, I went on the retreat again. I had chosen to attend it based on how great the first one was. This time around managed to be powerful in a somewhat different way. I spent quite a bit of time talking to a now 19-year-old man from Glasgow about what was happening in my life at that point. He and another man prayed over me, and they both gave me suggestions on what I needed to do to fix it, as well as reassured me that the Lord will help me to do what's right. Ever since the incident in August, I had the notion that my parents would verbally excoriate me if anything similar ever happened again, so I chose not to tell them about when I got flagged in late January and again in early April. After I spoke with the two men, I had a word with the youth minister, whom I have known since 2013. I told him what was going on, and he gave me advice to tell my parents about what was going on so they could help me. From the depths of my soul, I assured that I would do it as soon as I could. At that point, I had decided that I needed to tell my parents on that night.

After speaking with my parents about what's been going on, I've gained some new insight, and I realize I was completely wrong about this whole situation.

On their advice, I've decided to make videos featuring or mentioning Darth Vigorous private until further notice. Said further notice will most likely be in 2018.

Here's the thing: The way things are make it so that Darth's mother has a say in Darth's life until he turns 21. I won't say exactly why, but basically her word is paramount until that happens.

Like I said, I've been totally wrong about this whole thing. She flagged me not out of spite, but out of natural parental worry. Sure, the incident in August was brash and irrationally handled, but that was the only extent of emotional flares. Everything else was done for the concern of her son. Is it irrational? Maybe, but until Darth can officially have a say in his life, what she says about his life must be followed. It's just what has to be done.

As of now, the situation no longer applies to me. I will leave it to DFG Hulk to inform his parents about this whole thing and take their own actions, but as of now, the situation is completely out of my hands.

What a relief...

Sorry for the long post, but I just had to get everything off my chest and let you guys know what's up.

~ SpaceGuru5

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